WHATTA DAY

Surprisingly, I’m in an okay mood.
Yesterday, not so much.
Despite my jacked up knee and the constant migraine,
I made a deal with myself yester….er….early this morning whilst studying my Korean lessons.

I’m going to overcome where short-term obstacle that is in my view.
I’m going to tackle my weight issue.
I’m going to devour every negative vibe that isn’t worth my time.
I’m not going to entertain stupidity.

Now, I’m holding myself accountable.
How so?
I love tattoos.
If I fail my mission, no new ink.
I’m determined to do this.

I have too much going on in my life to have an obstacle at every corner.
To constantly feel like a failure.
Even at times, I feel like I’m wearing deflated floaties,
I can do this.

Also, I’m writing on Vocal Media..You can check out my unfiltered writings below.

Beauty in the Eye of the Beholder
The Struggles Of Getting Over A Broken Heart 

xoxo

ssssstressed….

I’ve been a bit stressed, but yesterday kind of hit the top for me.

I love my job, but I’m getting to the point where I actually feel like it’s not worth me going into work for the day. That’s baaaad. It’s not the parents or students, but some of the people that I work with. They don’t value the job or care about the job like I do. I don’t have the luxury of not showing up for whatever random reason.

I always tell myself: why care, if they don’t? The thing is: I do care. I care because if I did any of the crap that they’re doing, I would get fired. I shouldn’t have to carry the work load alone because I don’t work alone…[as of lately, I kind of am…]. I try to express my grievances, but I feel like it falls on deaf ears.

Emotionally, I’m tired of that place. I feel unappreciated and taken advantaged of. I don’t feel like I’m growing or progressing as a person. It’s simply, Erica’s there. She’ll handle it. She’ll take care of it. We preach about family and team work. But, we’re nothing of the sort.

I’m feeling burned out. I feel like  my feelings don’t mattered and dismissed. I feel like I just…don’t fit.

xoxo