just laying here in the dark when I should be studying.

I’m bored out of my mind. I want to go outside, but its storming.

seems like nothing can just go as I plan.

I want to be happy, but I just can’t bring myself to do so.

I see others happy, but can’t help the envious feeling.

maybe its not in my cards to be so…happy.

I want a happy marriage as well, but let’s be real…is it possible?

full of uncertainty and disappointment at the moment.

Or maybe I’m just finally tired of it all.