just laying here in the dark when I should be studying.
I’m bored out of my mind. I want to go outside, but its storming.
seems like nothing can just go as I plan.
I want to be happy, but I just can’t bring myself to do so.
I see others happy, but can’t help the envious feeling.
maybe its not in my cards to be so…happy.
I want a happy marriage as well, but let’s be real…is it possible?
full of uncertainty and disappointment at the moment.
Or maybe I’m just finally tired of it all.